The Secret Tears

After only 2 hours of sleep the cold seeps into my bones. So many things to happening at the same time and I hardly know where I should start. I’m barely back from Lima and the phone rings. It is the director of the furniture company who informs me that he has a problem. There is no material to make the 150 red chairs for the hospital. I can check back with them again next week. The grandiose promises from the furniture company have lasted for just 1 night.

I can’t tell you how often I have traveled to that part of Lima in search of suitable chairs for the waiting rooms. After so much work and my strength at an end, I am once again back to square one – no happy ending in sight.

Diospi Suyana has always been a success story against the background of adversity – often stumbling around in the dark from one dead end to the next. Possibly one can only see the “light at the end of the tunnel” from a bird’s-eye view.

But the journey doesn’t end here. On Wednesday I will probably head back to Peru’s capital and begin another round of never-ending taxi rides in search of success.

In fact, I am not so much concerned with the success but prefer instead to see a “ray from heaven”. I want only to feel His presence as He promised more than 2000 years ago. And in this sense, perhaps the story of Diospi Suyana is more of a pilgrim’s journey. Just to be in His presence for 1 minute is well worth the endless hours towards the unknown.

Perhaps the car will go off the road on one of the many curves in the road. Or perhpas I can’t get past the hurdle because my strength is gone from jumping so many times before. Will I just be stuck there, unable to move ahead?

Then in the afternoon an email arrives in my computer’s mailbox. A man from northern Germany tells me how Diospi Suyana has had a profound impact on a top executive’s life. What has moved him is not the millions of dollars invested or the specifics of the achievement, but the faith that went into the project.

A faith built on the wave of success has little meaning and is unconvincing. However, when we are knocked to the ground and have nothing more to give, there faith shines through with a supernatural light

KDJ